I survived this weekend. I haven't a f**n clue what energy was swirling around but it hooked me like a starving fish. I went off the wall and fell on my face. I was humbled. I allowed myself to make a humiliating error that brought on feelings I was so uncomfortable with I could barely talk. I wish I would have been aware of what I was really feeling instead if going through such a unpleasant event. The thing is I didn't even realize this was happening. I knew I was uncomfortable but I thought it was just my social anxiety and lack of self worth rearing its ugly head. After all was said and done I heard "see you are putting your self in another position to please people just like before". I could have rejected this but I immediately felt a sigh escape my solar plexus and I knew it was TRUE!!!!!
I think I need to learn how to protect my energy. I haven't been so hooked in soooooo long. I have felt very vulnerable and felt zapped a few times. I would really like to teach this to Aidan as well. I've started working in a chiropractors office and I don't want to touch these people. I feel like every time I touch them I "take on" some of their energy and I am NOT comfortable with this. I feel like a sin eater.
Damn glad to have made it through this.
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